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Dispatch- Walk With You
you should pretty much just listen.
My boyfriend and I talked on Friday and things are good now. After a lot of thinking and talking with a lot of friends, I realized that I was kind of freaking out about being tied down and giving up opportunities for him. I didn’t realize how much pressure I was putting on myself. So, I told him all of this and he understood. We both agreed that we need to spend less time together and make sure that our time together is quality time. Living together in August is an option, not the plan anymore. If I find a job far away, we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.
differences aside.
here is the difference between us two, here is the line that separates me from you. i have no ambition to be something grand. i am content and satisfied to just understand, how the world works, and what makes it turn. but you won’t stop until you achieve all you yearn. take pride in that fact, that drive is something i lack. i enjoy the small moments, it is then i pause and sit back. you live for the big moments, blazing your own trail. i have no doubt that in the end you won’t fail. with your passion, i know you’ll make it big. toppling trees, while i’m happy with a twig. it looks like you’re going places, leaving me behind. but honestly, i really don’t mind. we are not alike, you and me. you dream, but i’m happy to just be.
I feel like this could be written by my boyfriend….ugh, this feeling sucks.
Now’s your chance.
Pep Talk: Quick! Now’s your chance to live the way you want to. You can go with the flow, blaze a trail, whatever! There isn’t one perfect way to do things. If you have a misstep, we’ll get over it. You do the best that you can and I’ll do the best that I can and life will unfold the way it’s meant to.
Today remind yourself: Now’s my chance.
Now IS my chance…but I haven’t yet figured out the life I want to live. The reason I’m on this break with my boyfriend is to figure stuff like that out, but I still really miss him.
soul stains.
you are not the person in the mirror. you are your mother’s love, revere her. you are your father’s callused hands, respect him. you are the empty cup that was full to the brim. you are space you displaced, a pause in time. you are the current that sets to motion the static wind chime. you are the sculpture that everyone you know has touched. you are the heart in hand, firmly clutched. you are the immovable anchor, the directionless rudder. you are the smile that makes your soulmate shudder. you are the left turn, or the right direction. you are the spider’s weave, the measured connection. you are the echoes of footsteps down a barren hall, you are the horizontal tree, a noiseless fall. you are the flush of a virgin’s cheek, you are the memories housed in a timeless antique. you are the handle that opens doors, you are the sturdy table, supported by fours. you are the dust between here and the stars, you are the melody contained by bars. you are the muscles that pull your loved ones nearer, you are not the person in the mirror. no, you’re much grander than the three dimensions, you are the epiphany that someone mentions. you are the music that plays whenever it rains, you are everything your mind contains, you are the soul stains, when nothing else remains.
The 9 worst things to say to someone who just got dumped
I was gonna do a top 10 all David Letterman-style, but I could only think of 9. I’m sure I’ll think of like, 14 more lame-ass things the minute I publish this. Oh well. This is the totally lame, pithy crap that anyone who has ever been broken up with has heard. None of it ever makes you feel better, but people say it anyway:
9. “It’ll get better!” — Really? Is that all you could come up with? I would rather you just not speak.
8. “If it was meant to be, it would have worked out.” — It seems, when faced with a friend in need of emotional support, even the most hardline agnostic/atheist/scientist likes to pull the whole fate bullshit out of their bag of empty pithy phrases. Even in a state of extreme emotional distress, the dumpee can still see how little you’re even trying. Jesus.
7. “You deserve better than him!” It’s not really about deserving-ness, also, getting dumped doesn’t make you feel real deserving of anything.
6. “He was a jerk anyway.” — Taking this time to talk about how much of a dick he is, or how much you hated him all along just makes the dumpee feel worse, not only about their judgment in choosing a significant other, but it also makes them feel like you were lying every time you said how how perfect he was for you. No good.
5. “Time heals all wounds.” — Thanks Father Time. Will time heal the would to your face that I’m about to inflict? OK, yeah, probably. But still. You suck as a friend.
4. “At least he did it now instead of dragging it out for like, 10 years.” Seriously? Really? I guess it would be worse if this was happening 10 years from now instead of now. Maybe, though, in 10 years I’d have better friends who wouldn’t say shit like that to me.
3. “You’re stronger/better off for having been through this.” Yeah, no.
2. “There are plenty of other fish in the sea!” — FAIL.
1. “God loves you!” — Yeah, God ain’t gonna bone me on my birthday. Thanks but no thanks.
I’m sure, at this point, you’re all like, dude, that covers the entire spectrum of things I would say to anyone I know who got dumped! And it is pretty much the entire spectrum of things that one could possibly say to someone who got dumped. So, really, what are you supposed to do?? Just listen to the person complain, because, honestly, especially when the wounds are so fresh, that’s all they wanna do anyhow. Lend a sympathetic ear, and save the pithiness for later.
My love note to Tumblr
It’s amazing how browsing Tumblr for a few minutes can take my mind off of things and remind me of things I love. This is such an inspirational, creative, interesting, generally positive, supportive community. I love the things I discover on my dashboard…they inspire me to keep working on my art and to try out new things. They also make me laugh, smile, say “awww” (see previous monkey post), and remind me that I need to get all I can from life (if I can just get off the internet). I’m happy I found this place and I thank everyone for making it what it is.
Love, itscreation.
