asakite:

i spent two hours in bed fighting off a panic attack about doing my project. i think subconsciously i have been sabotaging myself for a long time. i’m burnt out. i’m tired. i am UNHAPPY. and as much as i appreciate the encouragement and kind thoughts, i can’t keep doing this to myself. so, i drove home today and told my dad that i will not be graduating next weekend. he was okay with it. i was terrified and i felt like i let everyone down, when in reality i was beating myself up over being not good enough for a career that makes me physically sick to my stomach. i don’t want a job where my only interaction with people is for a story. i want a job where i can help people, be creative, and be happy. but it’s not about what other people think, anyway. i am finally taking care of myself and fixing two of the worst mistakes of my life: being a photo major and working for the daily tar heel. that’s not to say that everything about those choices was bad; i met some of my very best friends through the dth, and i learned about photography and sometimes did things that i enjoyed. it’s just for the most part i was miserable. so next week i will not be earning a diploma, but i will have reclaimed some sanity.

and exactly one week from today, i will get that diploma. things are turning out beautifully.

YAAAYYY GO ALLIE!!!  I can’t wait to graduate with you :)

elyssasharp:

I’m really not old enough to grow up yet. What the hell are they thinking giving me not one, but two degrees??

This is my friend Elyssa.  She’s awesome.  And in this photo, she’s proudly displaying my one and only goal for the next two weeks.

unicornology:

bon-bon:

getbuck:

I feel like my friends and myself, at this point in our lives need a collective shake. A collective slap in the face. We are brilliant, creative people and some of us are working, some of us need to find work, but all of up are feeling this dark cloud. I an pretty convinced that if someone just slapped all of us, and screamed ‘wake the fuck up, you brilliant idiot!’ maybe some of us will start moving. And start doing more than what we need to do in order to survive.

1. How old were you? 1 year, 4 months
2. Who were you dating? ummm…
3. Where did you work? Diapers-R-Us
4. Where did you live? Union, NJ
5. Where did you hang out? the floor, on my sister, with the dog
6. Did you wear contacts or glasses? no
7. Who were your best friends? my sister
8. How many tattoos did you have?
9. How many piercings did you have?
10. What kind of car did you drive? I had to master walking first!
11. Had you been to a real party? I had been to a real potty….
12. Had your heart broken? Nope
13. Were you single/taken/married/divorced? Single
14. Any kids? weird.

****15 YEARS AGO (1994)****

1. How old were you? 6 years, 4 months
2. Who were you dating?
3. Where did you work? school
4. Where did you live? Berkeley Heights, NJ
5. Where did you hang out? The YMCA I think
6. Did you wear contacts and/or glasses? No
7. Who were your closest friends? NaDea, Sabrina, Stephanie, Kyle?
8. How many tattoos did you have? none
9. How many piercings did you have? none
10. What kind of car did you drive? Training wheels!
11. Had you been to a real party? I had probably hit a pinata or two…
12. Had you had your heart broken? No
13. Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Single
14. Any Kids? Nope

***10 YEARS AGO (1999)***

1. How old were you? 11 years, 4 months
2. Who were you dating? Probably Brian Finn
3. Where did you work? Nowhere yet
4. Where did you live? Berkeley Heights, NJ still
5. Where did you hang out? Drug Fair, Grand Union, “downtown,” the library
6. Who were your best friends? Courtney, Nikki
7. How many tattoos did you have? none
8. How many piercings did you have? none…or had I just gotten my first holes done?
9. What kind of car did you drive? mountain bike!
10. Had your heart broken? At the time, I probably thought Brian broke my heart after our 25-day relationship.
11. Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Single/taken in that middle-school-kinda-way.
12. Any Kids? no

****TODAY (2009)****
1) Age? 21 years, 4 months
2) Where do you work? Missy McLamb Photographers and Ham’s Restaurant
3) Where do you live? Chapel Hill, NC
5) Who are your closest friends? Alex, Sarah, Allie
6) Do you talk to your old friends? Of the people above, I still talk to my sister, NaDea, Sabrina, Alex, Sarah, and Allie.  I occasionally talk to Courtney.  There are actually a lot of other old friends I still talk to.
7) How many piercings do you have? 10!
8) How many tattoos? none, but plans for four when I have the design and money.
9) What kind of car do you have? 2002 Honda CR-V
10) Had your heart broken? not really
11) How many kids? none
12) Are you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Taken
13) Contact or Glasses? Neither

asakite:

oldfilmsflicker:

arielelizabethwhatwhat:

getitgurl:

kellyjay:

thedailywhat:

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